reality vs beliefs

Sunday, June 01, 2008

moving :O

last post here (for now).
http://chinleestee.livejournal.com/
xx

tagged by cheryl, farrah, dione & weichen (i think).
tks ya'll for helping me curb my boredom :B

Instructions:Remove one question from above and add in your personal question.
Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people.
List them out at the end of the post.
Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged.
Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all :D

what instructions?

1. What’s your ambition?-- i've had 10++ ambitions and counting.

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boyfriend?-- boyfriend's also a friend too right? but currently friends cause 'bf' is NA.

3. Who is the person you trust most?-- ermmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm MYSELF! :D

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?-- depends on what situation? idk

5. Who is your idol?-- Myself, duh.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?-- yupp. ain't tt a natural phenomenon?

7. What is your goal for this year?-- get decent results & netball skills to make the cut for bdiv09

8. Do you believe in eternity love?-- one's life span can't match up to eternity.

9. Have you broken someone’s heart that she/he tried to commit suicide?-- hell NOOOOO omfg

10. What feeling do you love most?-- The feeling of doing better than expected :D

11. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?-- eee scam, half only? i don't want.
okay, serious stuffs:
humour. sports-inclined. ability to understand & tolerate my peculiar outlook of life. someone who really cares. like really, really. LOL someone who is trustworthy. let's be straightforward,
LOOKS ARE IMPT. VERY IMPT.
why, tt sounds like me?!?!? jkjk.

12. Favourite hobby?-- not fave but fav.s! shopping, netball, flaming, etc.

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?-- yeahhhhhhhhh.

14. Do you like S.H.E?-- lol. no link Q.

15. Do you think you had a nice haircut?-- erm so so. nth bombastic, just got it thin-ened.

16. Do you love anime?-- HAHAHAHAH NO.

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.-- (i'm ignoring the word count)
cheryl: octopus face! bio imbaaa! HATES HISTORY like zxsdwegsrtg124701834238095394!
farrah: kiasu(lol)! emo! WHITE! glow in the dark! stomach-ache champion!
dione: omggg so long since we talked (other than dione! lol) still cute as ever!
weichen: my son lol. ZILIAN. head's got a generous circumference. stomach's nv full!

18. What have you done to please yourself?-- lol please~ hahaha. erm alot. lol

19. IF you had one wish right now, what would you wish for to come true?-- $M.O.N.E.Y$ pilling up in my house :B

20. What do you want most for your birthday?-- my entire wishlist to come true. HAHA

Do this quiz and get truckloads of blessings! (or get bored to death)

haha i tag no one, do if want/are rotting at home/bored of dota (impossible!), etc.

5:56 AM

♥ I Dream Realities.

Thursday, May 29, 2008

tag replies

ps. super lag.

'farrah: HAHA. really? bobian. yeah luh, just like every pe lesson. -.-

'handsome: yo son. wad wad wad hahahaha.

'victoria: yo. lols.

'haras: hey tks (: haha i'm honoured, lol.

'dione: lol. hahahaha tks tks :D

'claudia: pls man, you're the eccentric one. heh

'mengx: hello. tks yo.

'nicole: haha cool. alright.

'danish: hey (: haha sure.

'christabel: hahaha okayyy. of course i know who you are. lol

8:18 AM

♥ I Dream Realities.

longgg post

yo.

i've not been posting.

duh.

okay, so i'm gonna squeeze 5 days in oneee post.
(why am i typing in choppy sentences?
well, idk too.
so let's move on.)

i'll start fr friday:
last day of sch was quite fun.
slack. talk. rubiks showdown. movie screenings.
actually, the first 3 are common routines observed at my area,
almost everyday.
okay, everyday.

movies were good.
HAHA yy's jessica alba.

however, the day ended with a foul note for me.
i screwed trng, really badly.
partly was the amt of nagging we got for openhouse prep.
like chill? not like the world's gonna end if a booth is to be set up the nxt day.
or your reputation'd be tarnished just cause "the netball booth is EMPTY".
maybe ppl do visit at 7am O:
then, we do apologise for the late work.

so clau & i returned to trng aft being super efficient.
we made it rather presentable right fr scratch
(with ppl sitting on the empty table -.-) ,
in 15mins or less.

felt really restless during trng
but sucked during down the court.
shooting was off & my play was awkward.
& aft trng i actually broke down. tsk.
but tks to twin (:
& hanni
& cynthia for walking towards me unglamly to comfort me,
& clau for walking to me with high socks which was even more unglam.
HAHA. & evaaaaaaaa too :D

sat:
the oh so impt open house.
everyone seemed stressed out by it, esp chers.
pimped the booth slightly more with netballers
& mended the pe booth too.
the balance thing was cool
& shot a lil.
we moved the pole thrice(?),
guess nobody can really accept our poor ostracized pole.

rach & i took the opportunity to play horse.
LOL, like aft a reaaaaally longgg time. (:
then we got told off & stuffs.
hecked & got kped agn.
so guess nobody bothered & returned to our dull lives at rvopenhouse.

went home aft finishing routine shooting.

mon:
weights only.
ms loo was sick & it rained.
haha everyone amchio,
for diff reasons.

shot aft tt & went to vivo.
seperated fr other netballers & went to pastamania with hanni & tudi.
then went arnd shopping.
confirmed my bag serial no.
& i'm gonna get tt funky hair orhlang too. HAHAHA
but i thought it was too ex.

returned to sch for psb gm.
ms mar's last day ):
think we've gotta keep faith & buck up
before everything crumbles to remnants.
(esp with someone else ic.)
watched vids, listened to speeches, ate cake.

tues:
no trng, so got my haircut & went shopping.
showed my mom the emo shit & funky hair orhlang.
although the emo shit was $4 cheaper than the f.h.o,
my mom was strongly agnst the idea of buying tt shit.

"wads tt? looks like..."
"haha, its shit!"
"yeah luh, looks like shit."
"i shall choose it over the funky hair guy"
"HUH? NOOOOO. don't buy shit."
"hahaha its cute & i always say shitzxc."
"how much's both?"
"erm shit 3.95, other's 7.90, SEE cheeeeaper!"
"NONONO, i'll buy tt hairy guy for you instead."
"orh okay, anything."
HAHAHA am i good or what?

wed:
hiong trng cause ms loo's back.
weights & court & shot aft tt.
but it rained halfway so i got a 94% lols.
super scam.

i learnt a valuable & painful lesson too.
i'll keep my wallet close to heart fr then on.
(no, i didn't lose $$, cards, keys, or pics for my case)
lol. OMG, totally murders my social status HAHAHA

thurs (today!):
hiong trng agn!
agility work first in the hall.
perspired like hell & developed this abnormal stitch thingy.
had it throughout court trng & shooting sucked during down the court.
luckily last two shots got in.
satisfied lol.

slacked awhile,
watched hiong ppl play tennis.
warmed up for shooting, with horse, with rach.
then started to rain,
so hanni, tudi & i headed for the hall.
illegal gathering with all the fans blowing at us lol.
we make good use of the sch's property,
if not for us,
they'd be blowing, nothing actually.
was kinda serene & tranquil while we talked abt random stuffs.
home aft tt.

3 weeks to enl.
5 trngs to brush up on shooting before enl.

6:54 AM

♥ I Dream Realities.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

still rmb last yr's x (:

~~COUNTRY~~
tmrrw

8:12 AM

♥ I Dream Realities.

Monday, May 19, 2008

innocent eyes packing hardcore sting

yo.

shall leave solcitude & ire outta my post today...
till the end of the post. lol

on sat:
nsl (FINALS) cip.
started off vip duty with hoching.
we thought it was ushering or smth along tt line.
but no,
it was spotting for the vips' cars. -.-

it was a v pressurizing & painstaking job.
cause
a) i didn't wear my specs
b) we were given this long list of vips & vvips,
who have diff reserved parking lots.
c) we were given a long list of confusing car plate no.s
d) there were cars coming in from every direction
e) if we were slow, other guys would be scolded & we'd get kped.

then finally we got to enter the hall.
watched the match
with the mcfc being the usual mcfc.
& yayee susan sidhu is awesome (:

played aft tt, as usual.
then waited for parents outside with hanni,
but she accompanied me for awhile more aft her mom came.
then we talked abt stuffs
which were the main worries clogging our brains these days.

yesterday:
did cip for shaowei's concert.
was quite tiring since we walked arnd to promote it.
i think JP is spammed with 'my-new-love' kinda ppl.
LOL, but tt didn't make me v excited.

hmm weirdest encounter of charity work ever.
ppl actually don't want to take the FOC postcards?
i guess the standard of living is too high these days
where ppl despise free postcards.
but tt ain't the reason!
cause they didn't like our $10 voucher thingy too.
makes you think eh?

i've heard of ppl collecting postcards,
or those who take free stuff for fun & dump them later on
or those who take free stuffs for the fact tt they are free.
BUT no such luck at JP yest.
"intro speech to promote change"
"er..."
"take a look at it, its free!"
"erm?" *gives wtf, 'you look like mas selemat with paris hilton hair' look*
"OHHH i'm sooo sorry, i've got my highly toxic epithelial cells all over it!"
-.- above is just chimerical, i'm such a charitable person pls.

managed to sell 2 vouchers aft like abt 3 hrs or so.
better than nth,
so lx & i went to 'celebrate' by having icecream.
we got kinda drunk aft the rum & raisin.
correction: concentrated rum & raisin ice cream.
so we, the junkies, staggered back upstairs to the stage.
we swayed side to side, with our vision twirling.

then we decided to have KFC aft checking out.
indeed, kfc managed to neutralize the spirituous effect on us.
then we lagged and talked all the way to the mrt station
& continued till je.
then we parted & home aftwards.

this is the end of the post,
which means yes,
the blood pressure rising section.

you face the world with those innocent eyes of yours
but nobody realises
tt all they pack is vemonous sting.
you preach the same tales over &
over again
as if to gain sympathy to redeem your position
while painting
me as the heartbreaker,
the stonehearted one,
the bitch.
but guess what?
frame all you want, shower yourself with as much pity as you want. i'll nv submit to your self-absorbed ways ever agn.
there's nth you can do to salvage the hatred i contain now. all you can do is to accept the facts, quit bugging me & other ppl stfu & fk off.
& i thought i didn't have to resort to these ways.

2:03 AM

♥ I Dream Realities.

Friday, May 16, 2008

screw off

DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT'S ONE-SIDED?

i'm furious beyond words
and i'm losing it.

if you really cared,
why would you ignore how i feel
& continue with all tt fk?

yes,
now i realise how much i hate you.

ps. you realised NOTHING.

8:58 AM

♥ I Dream Realities.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

short post

yo.

i'm happy.
lol

i fking didn't fail chem! LOL
& i thought i'd fail it the worst
cause i gave up half way through of mcq!
hahahahahah.
wonderful.

so yes, i'm elated.
thus i was swearing with a big grin lol.

okay, chi was -.-
kp luh mark wrongly, dropped a whole grade.
& we all know its impossible to beg for marks.
so why bother right?
the most "oh srry, another Q. marked wrongly."
& i'll just draw a huge Q. mark on top of 'HCL' (on the cover pg)

so aft my misfortunate streak of disgusting grades,
the papers do justice to me.
i really hope i ain't the one who failed bio in our combined class,
i mean it'd totally backfire my lighthearted-ness aft the bio paper.

tmrrw is gonna be a longgg day.
sequence of this week's hiongness.
yest: weights, hiong trng, 11 consecutive suicides.
today: 2km for pe (quite hiong).
tmrrw: 6km(?) at 6.30am, heart attack fr bio (?), trng in the aftnoon.

y'know i see loads of "when you lose faith, bla bla bla..."
well for me,
when you lose faith in yourself,
HIONG PRAY.

8:21 AM

♥ I Dream Realities.

Monday, May 12, 2008

sucks big time

today marks one of the most emotional days in sch.
i guess.

distracted by loads of stuffs,
which sucks cause you feel like everything is linked to
wtvr tt is on your mind.
& i guess i made my slacking grp v sian diao too.

back to original seating arrangement,
glad cause they're really fun ppl (:
but pikachu didn't come today!
slacking grp's incomplete.
but still, tks for making me forget & just laugh.

classes sucked,
i really have no other vocab for it.

aft sch played bball,
guess lost the drive for bball?
like it has decreased its entertainment val. rdy.
then went for maths statistics talk with a pack of ice lol.

sat at the corner in the back row (furthest back)
with twin and others.
felt a flux of emotions while listening to the talk.
loads going through my mind & they collide.
bet i looked damn unglam,
luckily was in one of the most secluded areas.
but yay twin (:

bball agn aft tt.
totally off focused so i stopped half way.
srry ppl.
i can't take it rdy.

then bball with qiaowei & dixun was much better.
felt better & laughed quite abit too.
going home was quite uneasy.

realised tt it was not all a competition,
there is concern, sensitivity & sympathy present.
tt's good to realise (:

i feel like i've lost alot of feelings for this (big) grp?
like i used to care?
now its like everything's torn apart?
everything's here and there
& i've resorted to hate even.
is this what we shld become of?
suspicion, disappointment, feeling offended/pissed/worried.

7:50 AM

♥ I Dream Realities.